clarity of thought

It is very easy to be stuck in your own stories and routines. It’s almost like you are fooling yourself.

My year in review for 2025 had a few breakthrough moments. I came completely undone, realizing I was holding onto things that were not serving me well.

It started when I asked Gemini for self-reflection questions. One question startled me:

"If nobody saw your title on LinkedIn, would you still do the work you are being positioned to do?"

The more I sat on it, I realized that the title and how things "appear" had become bigger than what I actually do.

The answer was an emphatic YES—but only for the hands-on work.

This drove me to realize that I love being in front of customers, solving technical problems, and understanding use cases. That is what I love to do. Not the managerial stuff, and not the internal politics.

If growth means becoming a manager of managers of managers, it is the wrong direction for me.

Managing a team isn't bad, and I’m not bashing it. But it comes with overheads and activities that are just soul-sucking for me.

I would rather be working with customers, hearing their challenges, and delivering value. 

Then I as I went on to document my thoughts, I realized there are a few other things that are either not serving me, or killing my gains on where I could be (sitting in front of my computer as a way of procrastinating, and lacking a social network). I will touch on these in different posts.

But, I feel I am in a much better place to make a subtle shift in 2026.